Website design By BotEap.comLife does not ‘happen’ to us no matter how much we would like to believe that this is the case. We are absolutely affecting the outcome of our daily experiences with every thought, word, and action, whether we know it or not. However, understanding this requires attention, intention and responsibility for how we are operating at all times; In other words, we ARE living a life of our choosing.

Website design By BotEap.comThat said, the only question I’ve been exploring these past weeks is: ‘If I’m choosing my life in each moment, why did I choose these current circumstances?’ I mean, let’s face it, as much as Jill and I have fun creating our future, our current circumstances could seem pretty bleak to just about anyone.

Website design By BotEap.comWell, the answer to this question came up not just once, but many times over a period of time. You see, all too often, we settle for the first thing that comes to mind and give the query no further consideration. This is of no use to you or me, simply because things are not as they seem, which is where many of us stop ~ on the surface.

Website design By BotEap.comEarlier this week, I met an incredible heart of man in Taos and it didn’t take us long to connect. We shared our life stories and began to discuss the differences between Santa Fe and Taos. He has lived here almost 9 years and sees Santa Fe as the ‘father’ and Taos as the ‘rebellious child’. He also believes that most people move here because they are artists or healers looking to establish themselves in a supportive community. What I found very intriguing was my response: ‘I’m here for the intimacy too! I have lived in big cities for most of my life, and I have been drawn to Taos for most of my adult life for that very reason; these larger communities lacked the connection that is so important to me. ‘ Needless to say, that caught my eye.

Website design By BotEap.comIntimacy ~ I’ve already written about this once; So hearing this one more time encouraged me to take a closer look, explore its value, discover the areas of my life that lack familiarity. The first step was to reevaluate the meaning of this concept: ‘close or warm friendship; the absence of fences created a mysterious intimacy in which no one knew privacy. ‘Being intimate requires worlds of trust because of being in such a vulnerable position. Let it be known, I pride myself on being reserved; So let my guard down and be seen ~ uh yeah, I’m getting my current position in life. It’s definitely the most vulnerable position I’ve ever been in! It’s no wonder people avoid being truly intimate (and I’m not talking about sex here – sex is easy as far as I’m concerned compared to what I’m learning from this experience) with another human being INCLUDING THEMSELVES . However, given our current situation, the next level of intimacy for me is facing it with others. I’ve done the work, I’ve opened up to myself, and truly practice compassion and kindness with every thought, word, and action. The next step is to open up to others and trust that they will be equally compassionate and kind to me.

Website design By BotEap.comWell, this very thought causes such a tightness in my chest, telling me that I am on to something. However, before continuing, let’s clarify one thing: this is not a new idea; I’ve already been completely open with Jill. On the other hand, I am interested in doing this on a larger scale; hence the reason for living in a very close-knit city. You may be wondering if I am looking for something beyond intimacy, and the answer is “no.” My desire is to feel an unconditional connection with the people in my life; if only by opening up and allowing the exchange of energy. The only thing I’ve been able to determine is how much people want to contribute to others, and the more we hold ourselves back out of fear of God knows what, the more we restrict the flow. In essence, we are saying ‘no’ to the Universe and, in turn, we are creating a lack of …

Website design By BotEap.comWhat if each of us has a mission to create intimacy? And what if this intimacy is exactly what it takes to experience a world of abundance? I must say that it has been my experience. The more I introduce myself and truly share my story and myself without judging myself or wanting to control the outcome, just genuinely sharing a fact or two, the more I experience people showing up for me!

Website design By BotEap.comHmmmmmm ~ let me clear this up. I introduce myself and the world appears. I practice compassion and kindness to myself, and I receive kindness and compassion in return. It could get better? I do not think so! And knowing this, I am certainly choosing my life. It’s only when I refuse to look at the core value of my circumstances that I continue to have similar experiences until … I finally get it. Isn’t that the definition of insanity? Doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results? Yeah, kind of like, the same soup, a different bowl.

Website design By BotEap.comThat being said, all I can say is that I chose this moment. What do you choose?